So it’s a dog eat dog world, and someone’s got to be on top, and someone’s got to be on bottom right?

And depression helps that hierarchy because depressed people can’t function in certain respects so they should be left out of the hierarchy or relinquished only to certain roles.

And people need to compete for success and depressed people should be less successful because they’re miserable and shit.

But wait depression can inspire creative thinking and critical thinking causing people to become geniuses, experts, and leaders. Or just boring different people.

High functioning depressives are indistinguishable from “normal” people or outdo them. And low functioning depressives are still capable of achievement.

So you can compete as a depressed person and know that society should recognize you even if you have a mental health condition. Maybe you’ll fit into a hierarchy or network, or maybe you’ll break the mold.

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So you know how it’s fight or flight? And everything comes down to a two choice hypothetical?

Sometimes avoiding confrontation is the safe and even healthy way to go.

Sometimes you need to decide if an issue is worth standing up for.

Sometimes you need to repress the desire to fight back for safety.

Sometimes you need to glorify your own feelings to maintain your perspective.

It’s hard to know when to do what. Just remember even if you can’t let something go, it’s a decision whether or not to pursue the issue. It can be safer to repress your feelings, yet it can also be dangerous to your psyche.

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So you know how you want to be a revolutionary?

Interesting thought.

Now comes the important question of nouveau ideology versus dogmatic safety? If there is any.

Sometimes it is necessary to challenge the norm to survive.

Sometimes people have the luxury of challenging the norm to change their lives.

And then there are a billion other cases of societal structures that require weighing the pros and cons of going up against the status quo. Just remember it’s often a trade off between the contemporary and the avant-garde, so consider your circumstances before, during, and after the revolution.

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So you know how you are always trying to make progress on curing your depression? No? You’re just sitting around feeling miserable? That’s cool too.

When you are trying to make progress, sometimes it helps to take on different concepts, complexes, and habits separately rather than all at once.

For example, if you struggle with a desire to do every job at once, try evaluating how to be tactically useless.

If you are dealing with the need to communicate better, then spend time working on those skills and interacting with useful resources and/or people.

If you find yourself going two steps forward, one step back, then maybe you’ll need to relax and think about heading in a new direction.

So it’s okay to make progress in parts, yet it’s also okay to observe what negative effects occur as well. Unfortunately, progress can come with unexpected developments and some of them can be an issue. You’ll have to decide on whether, in your advancement, the pros outweigh the cons.

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So you know how sometimes you try to tell someone that you feel guilty because you’re a bad person. And they’re like, “No you’re just depressed!” Fuck that. You are a bad person, it’s just that not everyone knows it.

Sometimes you’re only so bad of a person. Like you enjoy eating the last snack or drink the last can of soda and refusing to refill it. Sometimes you’re an even worse person, like using up the critical resources of your friends, family, or community and not paying anyone back. And sometimes you’re less passive and you proactively go around fucking people over on purpose and/or accidentally.

The important thing here is that in certain cases guilt makes perfect sense. And when people tell you not to feel guilty, they’re just not framing your behavior in a way that helps them understand what you’re doing wrong.

And then again, sometimes people are telling you to feel guilty, and you’re not sure if you should. The answer is: why not? Meaning that literally. Think about the reasons you have to feel guilty and to not feel guilty and then decide for yourself what is morally acceptable. Remember though, you typically have to fit in with a society so understanding the standards of the people around you is important too.

The other thing is that sometimes you’re a good person too. And like how you feel guilty for being a bad person, you can feel happy when you are generous, or kind, or helpful, or actually anything you want to feel good about. The point is that you decide what is acceptable for your feelings. Although again, paying attention to the people around you is probably still important.

So you’re a bad person! And you knew it all along, didn’t you? Still, you are also a good person! And that’s less obvious when you’re depressed. If you want to change your actions to be more bad or good, that’s your decision. It’s complicated and personal. Yet it can come across simply too.

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So you know how you are doing your best to survive the present moment and yet your mind keeps thinking about what is coming up days to weeks to months to years in the future?

It’s important to remember that the future is ambiguous and doesn’t exist yet. While you can prepare for the future by looking at what needs to be addressed in the present, this ultimately means you need to be paying more attention to the present in general.

When you imagine the future as being better or worse than the current moment, that’s a reflection on what you’re focused on right now. If you think about how sad it will be after people have passed on, then spend that time paying attention to those people in the current moment. If you’re scared about how many resources you’ll have in the future, then focus on saving resources in the current moment.

The important thing is to remember that current life enjoyment is worth prioritizing to some extent. Without caring about what is happening in the current moment, you can get depressed because you didn’t make sure to enjoy the moments that you had in the present.

And it is important to remember that thinking about the future isn’t just damaging to the present. You can reassure your current self that you’ve thought about what’s coming up and then you can have a greater sense of security in planning.

So it does make sense to think about the future, it’s just that remembering the current moment is important to maintaining positive self-image and emotional well-being. You can plan for the future, and yet also stay grounded in the present moment.

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So you know how talking about your “problems” is a challenge? And sometimes you do not know what to say or to who?

Table that idea. Sometimes it is okay to use tactics that involve sharing yourself privately. You can do writing exercises or make videos or voice memos to yourself. Then you can hold onto them so that later you can observe your progress. In particular, writing can mean that you use a different part of your mind so you can learn more about another part of yourself.

Recording parts of yourself for your own evaluation means that you get to control the criticism. It can be a little too much sometimes to expose your thoughts and feelings to another person, so you can judge yourself to start.

Then again, it can be important to determine where your issues leave you in relation to fitting in with society. In these circumstances, finding the pre-approved of people to share with might be a good idea. In America, that would be counselors and therapists, yet trusted friends, family, or acquaintances can also have useful opinions.

It can be okay to seek out counsel from other people. Learning how to communicate with others can change the communication in your own mind and vice versa. That being said, you need to know who to trust to make sure that you’re not at risk of receiving harmful criticism or even worse repercussions.

So you can talk it out, or you can talk it in. Relying on yourself can be a useful way to know what you want to focus on in your personal development. Maybe someday you’ll communicate with other people, or even maybe right now. The important thing is that you decide who to share with and what to say.

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So you know how sometimes getting better can feel great, and yet it can come with changes in behavior that are less predictable?

If you need to stay depressed to function, should you? Sometimes people have conditions where getting better can cause them to transform into entirely different people, so what does that mean for their social life?

When having to make these decisions sometimes it is important to pay attention to how much misery you can take because remember kids, the world is awful, and even when you feel better there will still be miserable parts that suck.

And yet it’s not always safe to stay depressed just to maintain consistency. It can decrease your ability to handle stress or be resilient in difficult situations which puts you at risk.

Then again when you are getting better, the habits you use can still be risky or controversial. What is important is to pay attention to your development and make conscious decisions of whether you can afford to change and if those changes are consistently beneficial. It is frustrating sometimes to be self-aware, and yet that insight is needed to make sure that you stay healthy and responsible while you move through different statuses of depression.

So you can feel worse if that makes you feel better, and you can feel better if that’s what you need to survive. Everything can be a trade-off and yet it is possible to have improved feelings about life as long as you make sure to stay safe and observe the changes in your development.

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So you know how it sucks to be victimized? Like made to feel awful and hurt? And yet sometimes saturating yourself in that feeling like someone caused you pain and you were innocent can also have catharsis.

It can be intoxicating to feel victimized, and yet it can also create cycles where you take that feeling out on other people. The question then becomes: did you really want to hurt someone else the way you had been hurt?

Because sometimes we seek out similarities in other people and try to create mutual understanding through shared experience. Still, it’s painful to cause other people pain and it makes you feel like a bad person. Are you actually a bad person? Do you deserve to feel guilt? That depends on the circumstances and yet being the victim can make it possible for you to victimize other people who truly weren’t the ones responsible for your initial pain.

Sometimes we feel guilty because we keep trying to feel like something wasn’t our fault. And this can sometimes be remedied with tricking our brain into thinking we were responsible for something that we weren’t responsible for. However, it is usually best not to just accept a lie because it makes you feel better. Rather delineating how responsible you were for something, and then examining why you took the action that caused further victimization will probably provide better clarity.

When you need to feel like you were the victim, that is important to note. It’s just that this requires balance with other people around you and their perception on whether you too have been an aggressor. It’s hard sometimes to acknowledge that people can be more than just the one who was hurt. They can also cause hurt to happen.

So can you feel okay feeling victimized? Or do you need to reframe and decide that you were sometimes responsible or the aggressor? Or do you need to blame the party or parties responsible for victimizing you? It takes critical thinking to navigate, so if you want to be more or less the victim, then that’s possible. And Linkin Park!

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