So you know how sometimes getting better can feel great, and yet it can come with changes in behavior that are less predictable?

If you need to stay depressed to function, should you? Sometimes people have conditions where getting better can cause them to transform into entirely different people, so what does that mean for their social life?

When having to make these decisions sometimes it is important to pay attention to how much misery you can take because remember kids, the world is awful, and even when you feel better there will still be miserable parts that suck.

And yet it’s not always safe to stay depressed just to maintain consistency. It can decrease your ability to handle stress or be resilient in difficult situations which puts you at risk.

Then again when you are getting better, the habits you use can still be risky or controversial. What is important is to pay attention to your development and make conscious decisions of whether you can afford to change and if those changes are consistently beneficial. It is frustrating sometimes to be self-aware, and yet that insight is needed to make sure that you stay healthy and responsible while you move through different statuses of depression.

So you can feel worse if that makes you feel better, and you can feel better if that’s what you need to survive. Everything can be a trade-off and yet it is possible to have improved feelings about life as long as you make sure to stay safe and observe the changes in your development.

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So you know how it sucks to be victimized? Like made to feel awful and hurt? And yet sometimes saturating yourself in that feeling like someone caused you pain and you were innocent can also have catharsis.

It can be intoxicating to feel victimized, and yet it can also create cycles where you take that feeling out on other people. The question then becomes: did you really want to hurt someone else the way you had been hurt?

Because sometimes we seek out similarities in other people and try to create mutual understanding through shared experience. Still, it’s painful to cause other people pain and it makes you feel like a bad person. Are you actually a bad person? Do you deserve to feel guilt? That depends on the circumstances and yet being the victim can make it possible for you to victimize other people who truly weren’t the ones responsible for your initial pain.

Sometimes we feel guilty because we keep trying to feel like something wasn’t our fault. And this can sometimes be remedied with tricking our brain into thinking we were responsible for something that we weren’t responsible for. However, it is usually best not to just accept a lie because it makes you feel better. Rather delineating how responsible you were for something, and then examining why you took the action that caused further victimization will probably provide better clarity.

When you need to feel like you were the victim, that is important to note. It’s just that this requires balance with other people around you and their perception on whether you too have been an aggressor. It’s hard sometimes to acknowledge that people can be more than just the one who was hurt. They can also cause hurt to happen.

So can you feel okay feeling victimized? Or do you need to reframe and decide that you were sometimes responsible or the aggressor? Or do you need to blame the party or parties responsible for victimizing you? It takes critical thinking to navigate, so if you want to be more or less the victim, then that’s possible. And Linkin Park!

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