So you know how it sucks to be victimized? Like made to feel awful and hurt? And yet sometimes saturating yourself in that feeling like someone caused you pain and you were innocent can also have catharsis.

It can be intoxicating to feel victimized, and yet it can also create cycles where you take that feeling out on other people. The question then becomes: did you really want to hurt someone else the way you had been hurt?

Because sometimes we seek out similarities in other people and try to create mutual understanding through shared experience. Still, it’s painful to cause other people pain and it makes you feel like a bad person. Are you actually a bad person? Do you deserve to feel guilt? That depends on the circumstances and yet being the victim can make it possible for you to victimize other people who truly weren’t the ones responsible for your initial pain.

Sometimes we feel guilty because we keep trying to feel like something wasn’t our fault. And this can sometimes be remedied with tricking our brain into thinking we were responsible for something that we weren’t responsible for. However, it is usually best not to just accept a lie because it makes you feel better. Rather delineating how responsible you were for something, and then examining why you took the action that caused further victimization will probably provide better clarity.

When you need to feel like you were the victim, that is important to note. It’s just that this requires balance with other people around you and their perception on whether you too have been an aggressor. It’s hard sometimes to acknowledge that people can be more than just the one who was hurt. They can also cause hurt to happen.

So can you feel okay feeling victimized? Or do you need to reframe and decide that you were sometimes responsible or the aggressor? Or do you need to blame the party or parties responsible for victimizing you? It takes critical thinking to navigate, so if you want to be more or less the victim, then that’s possible. And Linkin Park!

*Mind-Controlled*