So you know how having a mental health condition like depression, or at least the symptoms of it, can come to be a defining characteristic of your personal identity? And this results in the dilemma of whether to wear your “illness” with pride, letting your neurodivergence flag fly, or to strive to conform and mask your way into normalcy? Or some combination.

That’s really a debate that everyone has to have for themselves, because it not only depends on what your internal motivation is, but also what response you might encounter from your environment. Questions can arise when weighing how expressive to be like: Is it safe? Do you want to be the same as others or different from them? Do you think there is something wrong with you? Do you think there is something better about you that makes you superior to other people?

And when the answer seems obvious to you, whatever that answer is, just recall that you live with how you represent yourself in the moment, and you also live with that representation throughout time. Make sure you have the stamina for whatever you decide.

Contemporarily, or as of February 2025, depression is often discussed as a mental illness and in American society, and perhaps other parts of the world, there is a great emphasis placed on becoming less depressed as though it is the cause of undue misery for individuals who have the condition, and sometimes those around them. However, this is only one perspective, and it sometimes is incomplete because the possible “positive effects of depression” are being overlooked, like an increase in creative potential.

With so much emphasis on seeing misery as a burden, it can sometimes be a challenge to celebrate depression, in fact the idea is sometimes too controversial to be taken seriously. And maybe that’s okay because maybe the goal to typically reduce symptoms is better for “sick” individuals and those who know them. And yet this is the decision a depressed person gets to make for themselves, even if attention to the surrounding environment is often required.

So there’s no answer here on how to define yourself with your condition in mind. There’s food for thought, and with that mind nourishment, you can continue to craft your own personal identity.

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So you know how you’ve heard of the term high functioning depression? And this implies the frustrating concept of low functioning depression?

Fuck that shit. High functioning is a label that people slap on individuals who are depressed, yet still can conform well enough to pass as a “normal” or even an “extraordinary” individual. So in order to be considered well-adjusted enough to have this sticker of societal approval, you need to fall in line with markers of what other people think is successful. If these markers meet your definitions of success, great! Who gives a fuck if they say that makes you high functioning, the important thing is you have met your criteria for excellence. Remember special is boring.

And if you don’t meet the expectations required for a positive sticker of societal approval, also great! Because you can instead focus on whatever the fuck you want and not have to give a shit about impressing fascistic assholes dedicated to making you fit narrowly pre-defined conventions of behavior.

Then there’s the flip-side which is the low functioning depression. These are the patterns of interaction that are not approved of or considered helpful by the people who serve as the normalcy police. And you might sometimes agree with those decisions, because you like fitting the high functioning label, or even because you feel you can’t dispute that the low functioning behaviors are negative.

But it’s a trap. It reinforces seeking external approval to define what is “well” and denigrates self-reliance that doesn’t conform to expectations of what is “functional.” And it causes people who are “high-functioning” to see this as a status symbol that they might be afraid to lose, creating pressure to conform even when it comes at a cost.

So you know high or low functioning, you decide how much to care about the label, and you choose whether or not to fake it forever.

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So you know how sometimes people die in horrifying ways? And this can come to overshadow the achievements and daily experiences of their lives?

Yeah the good news is that everything and everyone dies so this is a great equalizer in terms of everyone having an empty purposeless life. Why is that a good thing? Well so you don’t get jealous of all those special people of course!

And yet if we look at history as a linear narrative compiled from accounts around the world, we are faced with the fact that some people’s lives contribute to the advancement of society, and so not everyone’s life is equally purposeless. These movers and shakers can have an impact based on how they live their life, but also based on how they die and the causes they champion until their final moments.

This is a little scary because it means other people have to be traumatized by their martyrdom or by their punishment at the hands of another party. Sometimes an individual may be known as a special advocate like Mahatma Gandhi, and sometimes they are a member of a notable population, like the victims of Auschwitz. The common thread being that society remembers them in part because of the circumstances of their death.

And yet in these instances, it is important to dramatize history with regard to the ways that these people lived their lives. There is a message to be shared in not only the extraordinary communications of pivotal world leaders, but also in the common daily activities of special populations.

So you can see a person as more than their final moments, and remember to celebrate their life as well as their death. When it comes to seeing some lives as more worthwhile or well-lived, that’s a unique personal opinion even as, arguably, all lives are rendered empty and purposeless by the inevitable void.

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So you know how there are all these people throughout history who died poor, hungry, and penniless? Or they were assassinated? Or maybe killed by some authority? Not to mention all the diseases that wipe out swathes of humanity. And if you survive all that, your body slowly wears down until you can no longer function.

This all the begs the question… Is there really a good way to go? As humans a large amount of our efforts are spent on prolonging our life, and potentially having a more comfortable conclusion, but never forget the honest truth that death is always awful.

But wait you say! Death with Dignity! You heard it’s real in Oregon. You can’t beat successfully convincing people that it’s in everyone’s best interest for you to be able to die. And that’s just contemporary legal suicide. Throughout time and history people have found means of ending their life in a way that they decided.

Still, you’ve got to wonder if you’re looking a little too aggressively for the certainty of knowing how you’re going to go, rather than focusing on all the stuff that’s going on while you’re alive. Depression causes the mind to focus on certain topics, including those relating to death, and yet if you alleviate your symptoms of depression, you’ll find that your mind naturally occupies its time with other thoughts and stays focused on being alive.

Basically, it’s not supposed to be a struggle. Your mind naturally processes trauma and pain allowing you to consider your daily life. And instead of feeling comparative about your life or death in relation to other people, you remember that “everyone is a loser” and “everything and everyone dies.”

So you can spend your time being scared of death and how you’ll go, because that probably provides some critical thinking powers. And then you can resolve your symptoms of depression to the point where death is just a passing thought, and life is about all of the living stuff.

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