So you know how there’s always someone who has it a thousand times worse than you? Particularly those poor people starving and bleeding in other countries. And how you don’t deserve any of the things that you have, but they do, because they’re suffering so much more than you? And how you don’t appreciate your life as much as you should, especially since you’re depressed and miserable when you should be gleeful? Yeah that’s about right.

You should give up everything you have and go live with dying foreign people. That will solve everything. You can probably be really helpful to them because you’re depressed and can offer them instructions on how to be blasé and numb. Don’t mock, these are important traits to have when living a developed nation lifestyle. Or maybe you have true skills to offer, like mediciney making magic, in which case, you’ll be useful, yet still miserable. Productive for others, and yet still waiting to really feel good about it. Oh joy!

Ha. Sarcasm. Anyway, whether you’re useful or useless is not really relevant. The world won’t fix itself, and poor starving people won’t suddenly stop being poor and starving when you stop having awesome things in your life. Your awesome things are not connected to foreign dying people. Well actually, when it comes to material goods, international industrial systems of production rely on resources and people from all around the world, so yes, your awesome material things are connected… Still, whether you are able to enjoy going for a walk outside, interacting with other people, or hugging all the kittens, is not dependent on far away dying people.

Also, who says those people want your life anyway? Oh sure if you’re poor and starving you want food, and yeah, you want wealth. Still, they’d likely rather have the life of some asshole who has all those things and isn’t fucking depressed. If they could choose whose life to switch with, yours would probably not be at the top of the list. Plus, those people may not want to switch lives with anyone. They have their own set of possessions, their own religion and community, and their own friends and family. They do need food, water, shelter, and love. They don’t need your food, water, shelter, or love.

And when it comes to the question of deserving your life or not, that’s a moot point. You did not get to choose your life and other people did not get to choose theirs. If your lot is better than someone else’s in some respect, well that’s lucky for you. You can appreciate your life without feeling bad about people who don’t have the things you have. No one is rewarded based on how much they suffer. Not you, not anyone else. If you think it is sad that other people are suffering, then you can go help them. Though you probably want to deal with your depression first because being blasé and numb, though fun, does not the productive helper make.

So if you are considering picking up your life and all your shit to go help people, think again. Jokes. That would be pretty cool. And if you don’t want to do that, it’s really fine. Everyone deserves to have good things in their life. And yet, not everyone has the same things. Did you make it that way? No. Although you can try to change it if you want. Still, you do not have to feel guilty for having more than other people. Fuck that shit. Just feel grateful. And if you can’t yet because your depression is making it hard to feel anything positive, then that’s fine. Fake it for now, feel it when you’re better.