So you know how another year is coming to an end, and everyone’s is preparing their plans for how to improve in the new year? And you’re caught between being glad that something new is happening to distract you from the perpetual boredom and pain of your condition, and being scared that you’ll actually have to make changes to your life?

It’s hard to decide to try new things or take on challenges when it feels like everything in the past is already perfect. -ly fucked. Perfectly fucked. And at times when you find that you should be looking forward sometimes it’s so tempting to just look back and dwell on your life history. Sometimes it is reassuring because as bad as it was, the past is over now, and barring time machines, you can’t actually change the past.

If you’re going to focus on what’s already happened, why not make an ethic of it? It’s a great time to think about what you’ve accomplished, and evaluate how much of it you truly feel you deserved. It’s a great time to think about the people in your life and how they’ve helped or hurt you. And it’s a great time of year to reflect on all of those dreams of what could be better, even if that does make you feel ungrateful.

You might think because calendars do control a vast part of our life, that it follows that we should worship the beginning of the year by marking it will all our plans to do better. Submit to the structure of external society and fall in line with the time-based programming of the overlords!

Okay or maybe you would rather say fuck it and just do whatever you want. And holidays, new years, and seasonal greetings bedamned, doing nothing is also a fantastic option. When all the world is celebrating, or thinking of ways to change society, it can be so wonderful to rebel your way into sullen apathy and lethargy.

So take a look at the past year and remember that there’s another one coming up. And then do more stuff? Or then do less stuff? It’s up to you as you’re dragged forward in time by the unrelenting laws of the universe.