Hate Everybody

So you know how sometimes non-depressed people make you want to purchase a big foam bat and smack people lightly on the head in anger? No? Too non-violent? Well, regardless, whether you want to pinch someone or crush them, just ask yourself how you can best spread that hatred around.

Non-depressed people are really annoying when it comes to figuring out depression. They want to cheer you up. Or write you off. Or convince you that you don’t make sense. And none of these things are helpful. And often they only serve to make you feel more misunderstood and isolated.

Oh god. And the worst is when they come at you with that “you’re being over-sensitive” bullshit. Fuck. That. That’s just code for “I don’t understand why you’re upset, but I don’t really want to, and I don’t really care, so I’m just going to blame you for your own problems since that way I don’t have to make any effort to help.”

And maybe if someone took a few minutes to actually sit down, listen, and make an effort to understand your perspective, they’d find that you make a decent amount of sense. Maybe then they’d realize how overwhelming your depression is and that you’re doing your best to cope, but really need some space to fuck up, and some support when you do. Often people don’t make the effort. And so they don’t get it. Then again, that just makes the few that do all the more respectable.

Still, interacting with people who are not depressed is generally pretty useful. Because at the end of the day, they are less miserable and that’s rather curious. How do they do that? How do they not see all the fucked up shit in the world? Or if they do, how do they just go about their lives anyway? Do they need to block other people out? Can you be non-depressed without being a narcissistic, self-absorbed little fuck? These are the questions that you can try to answer through observing the non-depressed people.

So go ahead and hate on the world. It sure hates you. Most people make no effort to figure out what’s going on and help you out even though they do take the time to judge you and make you feel like shit. Still, there may be something to learn from all those happy jerks out there. And you might not want to waste too much effort beating them with foam bats. It is satisfying to be sure, but makes for tired arms.

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