So you know how people are always being bright and cheerful about things all the time? And what you really want to do is crawl up in a nice little corner all by yourself? And yet when you do that you just feel like shit because you’re being anti-social? And still, it’s better than when you go out with people and just bring them down with your miserableness?

Well, what a sad little cycle you’re in! Can’t hang out with people since you’ll just inflict your depression on them and cause them to judge you, yet also can’t just let yourself mellow out on your own because that means you’re a gloomy McGloomerson and your self-loathing self will have a field day calling you out on it.

Fuck it. If you want to be alone, go ahead and do it. Just not because of the other people you may bring down. Who gives  a fuck about them? They spend plenty of time whining about shit that makes them unhappy so they can fucking put up with you doing the same. Do it because you just need sometime to get your shit together without other people distracting you or without being bombarded by all of their and the rest of the world’s bullshit.

Then again, if you feel like being with people, then that’s fine too. If people give you shit because you’re all depressed and miserable, just tell them you’re dealing with stuff and need them to put up with it. Likely you’ve done that for someone in the past, so they should do it for you. And even if you haven’t, there are people out there who have had to rely on others and therefore may have a debt that they can’t repay, so find them so that they’ll pay it forward to you. Win win.

If the people you want to be with are also going through shit, and you think that you’re dumping on them, then that just means you have to take as much shit as you give. You don’t have to avoid people who are going through things because, ultimately, you guys can probably understand each other better than people who are fucking oblivious. That being said, if you just sit around being all sad together, then don’t be surprised if you just stew in your mutual depression. Which is cool if that’s what you want. Otherwise you might choose to help each other heal and not just scratch at your wounds.

So if you want to be a whiny little bitch around people, do it. If you tell them you need that, then they should give it to you, or you should find other people who will. Just remember, sometimes people need to be reminded of how to treat you when you’re struggling, so you’ll probably need to use words to communicate, and not rely on facial expressions or telepathy.  On the other hand, if you want to be alone, then that’s cool too. And if you want to do one of those things, and then hate on yourself for it, no one’s stopping you from doing that either. It’s your misery, after all.